I spent much of last night awake and thinking about my current situation. It is not the unemployed factor that I was considering, but the repeated bouts of frustration and hope. Each time I get an interview I hope something will come of it. Each time I hit a roadblock I just want to give up in the search. In the back of my mind is the omnipresent desire to be in a situation where employment was optional so that I could focus my time on just helping anywhere that I could be useful.
As I thought last night I began to wonder if I should be more focused on humbling myself so that I could accept whatever the Lord has in store. Another option might be that I need to be more humble so that I can hear the will of the Lord and follow Him. Right now I feel as if I am being tossed about. I hope for every possibility because I don’t know what the Lord desires for me with regard to employment. Neither do I know what lesson He may have in mind for me to learn from my unemployment.