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Not Enough


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Sometimes I find myself feeling stuck in life; feeling that no matter what I do I have no real meaningful choices. I have described it as having, in any decision, a choice that is blatantly obvious (like deciding whether or not to wreck my car), or a choice that is meaningless (like deciding between Cheerios and Rice Krispies for breakfast).

Laura has asked me before if I have ever prayed for options and the answer is that I have with the result that I have still never felt like I had a real choice. Either the way was clear or the choice was inconsequential. As I thought about the feeling of impotence that comes with seeing no alternatives, no options to choose from, I realized that I was wrong about never having any options – especially in times that I have prayed for options. There have been plenty of instances where the choices really were black and white such that I would never take one of the options presented (wrecking my car for instance). The other times that I have felt stifled I realize that there are two different types of situations. First is when I have desired something only to be guided away from it. The second is when I have desired to do something and the answer from the spirit when I ask about pursuing it has essentially been “what are you willing to give for it?” The answer has virtually always been “not enough” or at least “not enough for the price that would likely be required.”

Anytime I am called upon to do something I am willing to do do whatever is necessary to complete the task but whenever I am left to choose my own direction I am unwilling to take significant risks for something I feel is entirely of my own choosing. That makes it sound like I don’t trust my own judgment, or that I don’t trust that I will be supported in my own choices.

There have been times when I have been willing to give enough but in the two cases that I can clearly recall – one resulted in me getting what I worked for on something that, so far as I can see, is transitory and unimportant while the other resulted in me putting in a lot of effort and making a lot of progress before I was instructed to abandon the pursuit (at least temporarily – maybe I have not seen the end of that yet).

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Book of Mormon Witness

It’s always interesting to see how people respond to powerful messages from General Conference. Although I spent much of conference somewhat distracted by children (what else is new) I was even able to recognize in that half attentive state that what Elder Holland was saying was powerful. In fact, it was powerful enough that I stopped paying attention to the kids for a minute when I heard him start to share the following testimony:

I ask that my testimony of the Book of Mormon and all that it implies, given today under my own oath and office, be recorded by men on earth and angels in heaven. . . I want it absolutely clear when I stand before the judgment bar of God that I declared to the world, in the most straightforward language I could summon, that the Book of Mormon is true.

When I heard that I thought that I would be happy to stand with Elder Holland and declare, with much less public office, that I know for myself that the Book of Mormon is truly the word of the Lord tailor made for our day. I consider that to be absolutely public information recordable and repeatable by anyone who would care to record or repeat it. The message obviously touched others as it inspired Connor Boyack to create a website called Book of Mormon Witness where anyone may add their witness to that shared by Elder Holland. Hundreds of people have already added their names in the last three days since the site went live.

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culture politics

Freedom OF Religion

By now everybody in Utah at least has heard about the speech given by Elder Dallin H. Oaks at the BYU-Idaho devotional yesterday on the subject of freedom of religion. It will surprise nobody who knows anything about me to hear that I agree 100% with everything he said.

Considering that I could not hope to add insights beyond those of Elder Oaks some might question why I would bother to write anything about his speech. There are two reasons – first, this subject of our freedom of religion (for any atheists I could comfortably call it “freedom of conscience”) is important to every American who cares about preserving a viable nation where we enjoy any amount of liberty whatsoever and thus I could not pass up the chance to promote that message; and second, when I saw that some of what he said was being misunderstood (as shown in a poll where 2 in 3 respondents disagreed with his  assertion that the retaliation and intimidation against supporters of Prop. 8 was similar in nature to the voter-intimidation of blacks in the South) I knew that it was necessary for people who understood what he said to stand up and declare their understanding.

I would like to address those two reasons for writing in reverse order, first to address the apparent misunderstanding and then to talk about how we must treat the freedom of religion in order to preserve a free society.

The poll cited above asks if respondents agree with Elder Oaks that “the anti-Mormon backlash after California voters overturned gay marriage last fall is similar to the intimidation of Southern blacks during the civil rights movement.” With only that question to go on it is understandable that people would think to disagree. The blacks during the civil rights movement faced intimidation tactics for a much longer period of time and from more than just lay people, but from official quarters as well. The problem with the question is that it misrepresents what Elder Oaks actually said. Here are his words:

Along with many others, we were disappointed with what we experienced in the aftermath of California’s adoption of Proposition 8, including vandalism of church facilities and harassment of church members by firings and boycotts of member businesses and by retaliation against donors. Mormons were the targets of most of this, but it also hit other churches in the pro-8 coalition and other persons who could be identified as supporters. . .

It is important to note that while this aggressive intimidation in connection with the Proposition 8 election was primarily directed at religious persons and symbols, it was not anti-religious as such. These incidents were expressions of outrage against those who disagreed with the gay-rights position and had prevailed in a public contest. As such, these incidents of “violence and intimidation” are not so much anti-religious as anti-democratic. In their effect they are like the well-known and widely condemned voter-intimidation of blacks in the South that produced corrective federal civil-rights legislation. (emphasis added)

Vandalism, harassment, firings, boycotts of member businesses, and retaliation against participants were all forms of intimidation faced by both blacks in the South and supporters of Proposition 8, yet that is not how he was trying to compare the two situations. Let me repeat his comparison with special emphasis:

. . . these incidents of “violence and intimidation” are not so much anti-religious as anti-democratic. In their effect they are like the well-known and widely condemned voter-intimidation of blacks in the South . . .

If you don’t believe that this is how he meant his statement hear the explanation that Elder Oaks himself gave (h/t Matt Piccolo):

Now for the question of how we must treat the freedom of religion in order to preserve a free society. Elder Oaks quoted Richard John Neuhaus who said, “In a democracy that is free and robust, an opinion is no more disqualified for being ‘religious’ than for being atheistic, or psychoanalytic, or Marxist, or just plain dumb.” If we hope to preserve a free and robust society we must insist that we and those who disagree with us tolerate any expression of opinions whether it be religious, atheistic, psychoanalytic, Marxist, just plain dumb, or any other description. That starts with us before we can reasonably demand it of those who disagree with us. As Elder Oaks said:

“At no time did anyone question or jeopardize the civil right of Proposition 8 opponents to vote or speak their views.”

Once again Elder Oaks has addressed this issue better than I could so I will summarize his conclusion.

  1. We must speak with love, always showing patience, understanding and compassion toward our adversaries. . . Even as we seek to speak with love, we must not be surprised when our positions are ridiculed and we are persecuted and reviled.
  2. We must not be deterred or coerced into silence by the kinds of intimidation I have described. We must insist on our constitutional right and duty to exercise our religion, to vote our consciences on public issues and to participate in elections and debates in the public square and the halls of justice. . . when churches and their members or any other group act or speak out on public issues, win or lose, they have a right to expect freedom from retaliation.
  3. We must insist on our freedom to preach the doctrines of our faith. I will add here that the freedom to preach the doctrines of our faith does not translate into a freedom or right to compel others to participate in that faith. This is true whether the issue is a specifically religious participation or a more secular participation. In other words, it is wrong to punish someone for choosing not to participate in a public religious observance (a prayer in a public setting for example) just as it is wrong to prevent someone from choosing to engage in a religious activity in a public setting.
  4. The call of conscience — whether religious or otherwise — requires no secular justification. At the same time, religious persons will often be most persuasive in political discourse by framing arguments and positions in ways that are respectful of those who do not share their religious beliefs and that contribute to the reasoned discussion and compromise that is essential in a pluralistic society.
  5. Latter-day Saints (or anyone else) must be careful never to support or act upon the idea that a person must subscribe to some particular set of religious beliefs in order to qualify for a public office. . . Such advocacy suggests that if religionists prevail in electing their preferred candidate this will lead to the use of government power in support of their religious beliefs and practices. In case that was unclear to anyone let me emphasize his point which was that the idea that a person must subscribe to some particular set of religious beliefs in order to qualify for a public office should never be acted upon or even supported.

(italic comments mine)

Cross-posted at Pursuit of Liberty

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life

Too Busy to Hear

It constantly amazes me how human and approachable President Eyring is. We were blessed to have him speak to our Elder’s quorum today. His son, Stewart, was there as well. At the end, everyone allowed President Eyring to leave first. I was not far behind him, but he stopped in the hallway to wait for his son. As I got to where he was he said, “I guess Stewart isn’t coming yet.” I’m not sure that he was really saying it to me, but I responded that it looked like Stewart was stuck behind a lot of other people in the room. Just then I heard Savannah’s voice in the hallway calling to Alyssa and Mariah – trying to direct them. As they came in sight I called out to them to calm them down and get them out of the way. President Eyring said to me “Savannah?” (I had called her by name) and I said, “Yes, Savannah.” He then called out to her. Unfortunately for Savannah, she was too busy with whatever she was thinking about to notice that a prophet had tried to speak to her. She rushed off the other way to find Laura.

As that happened Mariah came to me and asked me to pick her up. I stood up with her in my arms as Savannah was leaving and turned to President Eyring and, referring back to the lesson he had just given said “this is my little celestial kingdom.” He looked at Mariah and said, “Yes, and we all have to become like her to return home.”

I think that is the identifying feature of the society of apostles and prophets – it’s not about titles or position, but that society is where the eternal can be recognized even among the most mundane parts of life. Being in their presence is no guarantee that we will be able to recognize what they have to offer us. To truly have the society of apostles and prophets we have to prepare ourselves to listen when they speak and to feast on what they have to offer us – whether they have a title that the world would recognize, or whether they are simply people filled with the spirit of prophecy and a testimony of the Savior.

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life

Elder’s Quorum with President Eyring

I had not known what I would ask an apostle if given the opportunity and today I had the opportunity. I really like the way the President Eyring conducted the class – he invited us to ask questions and suggest topics. He then wrote down our requests so that he could group them as appropriate and answer them in the order than seemed most fitting. One person asked about the apostolic calling and President Eyring said that he would answer that by talking about the Quorum of the Twelve and not about the personal apostolic witness – there I suddenly had my question. I asked if he would please say something about the nature of an apostolic witness (of course I stumbled over my words and phrased it quite clumsily but he understood my question and rephrased it in that way).

President Eyring started by grouping the suggestions of our pre-mortal existence, the celestial kingdom, and the Atonement together as elements of the plan of salvation. He said that we didn’t know very much about any of them. We know a few things about the pre-mortal existence and the celestial kingdom from the scriptures but nobody truly comprehends the magnitude of the Atonement despite all that has been said about it. He described the celestial kingdom as the life that Heavenly Father lives and said that it is a very challenging life. He told us to imagine what it would be like to look down on earth at all your children and see the terrible things that they are doing to each other. On the other hand He also sees the wonderful things that are done and gets great joy out of those. He also told us that regardless of how hard it was it was something that we should all desire. I realized as he was talking about the challenges of a celestial life that it makes sense that there are some people who really do not desire to make the effort necessary to receive or live such a life.

I have, at times, been tempted to ascribe more of short-sightedness than malice to the intentions of Lucifer in proposing his impossible alternative of a plan. President Eyring said forcefully that it was an outright rebellion that was based on a lie. The lie was that people need not walk by faith – that Satan could give them the assurance of salvation by abandoning their agency. The truth is that even in the presence of the Father all the spirits were under the necessity of walking by faith.

Speaking of the calling of the Twelve Apostles, President Eyring said that the apostasy was not the absence of the priesthood on the earth. He cited the presence of John the revelator as well as the Three Nephites as evidence that there have been priesthood holders on the earth throughout that period, even apostles. What was missing from the earth was the foundation upon which a true church organization is built – namely a quorum of apostles.

Speaking of the nature of an apostolic witness he said that an apostolic witness has nothing to do with what you have seen – it is about what you KNOW. In other words, it is about having the knowledge that Christ is our Savior in your heart as a part of your being. He said that last night he learned (again) what it means to have an eye single to God as Christ did. It means that the first thought in all things is “Father, what would you have me do?” And that thought must be coupled with an absolute determination to do whatever the Lord directs regardless of the outcome, the cost, or the perceptions of others.

It was very interesting to hear President Eyring talk about President Hinckley and President Monson. Some people view them very differently and, like any other calling in the church, they recognize that each person holding the calling need not follow the footsteps of the person before them. While that is true in one sense I caught a very different perspective on it today as he spoke. President Hinckley did things based exactly on what the Lord told him as he asked “Father, what would you have me do?” For this very frugal man that included some very grand and expensive undertakings (the Conference Center – which might be viewed as unnecessary considering the technology that we already have; the expansion of temple building; the rebuilding of downtown Salt Lake City) and President Eyring assures us that President Hinckley did all this while knowing that we would face the economic downturn that is now upon us. The Lord was using the particular gifts of President Hinckley to do His work. President Monson does different things than President Hinckley, but he does them based on the very same question, “Father, what would you have me do?”

I have always felt more connection with President Hinckley than I did with President Monson. I believe that is because I am more tuned in to those organizational types of things than I am into the human things that are such a hallmark of President Monson as he is prompted to give a blessing, to make a visit, and to lift up the broken-hearted.

The key for me, in my quest to gain an apostolic witness for myself is to build my knowledge of the Savior until it is at the core of my being and practice asking the question “Father, what would you have me do?” and having the determination that my response will be to follow the answers regardless of the cost or consequence. I do know that Christ is the Savior and I do wish to do as He requires. I am willing to face challenges for His Name’s sake – I simply need to grow more perfect in those things. As I do so the Lord will use me in ways that are uniquely suited to my gifts to accomplish His work.

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life

Gathering – President Eyring

In Stake Conference today, when President Eyring got up to speak he started by saying, “President Taylor (our newly called Stake President) said that he would speak later on gathering – I would like to speak about gathering now.”

President Eyring assured everyone at conference that they were not there by accident, but that the Lord had gathered and continued to gather people in. He said, “None of you are here by accident.” He said that when he was called as Deputy Church Commissioner of Education in 1977 and had to leave Rick’s college, where he had been serving as President, he asked the Presiding Bishop for the data (demographics and church activity I imagine) on all areas within a 20 minute commute from downtown Salt Lake City. He was looking for a place where he could raise his children. He identified “this area” (I’m not sure how specific that was, I imagine that he identified the southeast area of Bountiful) as the place to move his family. He did not know how to go about finding a house there (he was still living in Rexburg) but he mentioned to one of the men who came from the church to load the moving truck and move his family that he wanted to live in that area. The man told him that he was a bishop in that area and would find him a house. That is how he came to live on Chokecherry Drive. He said that when they moved in they could feel that it was a very special place but they knew that over time it would change. He said that all the time he has lived there, whenever someone moves out someone else wonderful moves in to take their place.

I thought it was amazing how his concerns were the same as ours and how his reaction to that little Eden was the same as ours too. We know that it will change, but being on the vanguard of young families moving in we have the opportunity to help it remain a very special place.

President Eyring gestured with an embracing motion as he quoted from the Savior, :”How oft have I gathered you as a hen gathereth her chicks.” He told a story of a visit he made in recent months to a place in northern California where he had not previously visited. While there he noticed a man who, he was informed, was visiting the church for the first time. As he observed the man through the course of the meetings he expected that the man would never return to such a foreign place. After the meetings the Bishop asked President Eyring if he would meet someone in his office. It was the man wtih the beard whom he had been observing through the day. President Eyring said that he was prompted to do something that is very uncharacteristic of himself – he told the man that the next time they saw each other he would be a member of the church. He recently got a message from that bishop that the man had been baptized and would be confirmed the next day.

After the story President Eyring said the following:

I don’t always  know what the Lord desires, but I love Him and will do what He asks of me – and He knows that I will. Because of that I would step out of character when speaking to that man. I pray each day to know what the Lord would have me do and to do it. In answer to my prayers He lets me know what He would have me do. (This includes some paraphrasing and I added the emphasis here.)

President Eyring then challenged us that we would pray daily to know the will of the Lord. He assured us that we could do whatever we were called to do by the Lord and he emphasized parenthood as a calling that nobody is prepared to do on their own (meaning without the Lord).

The more that I record and read of my account of this talk, the more President Eyring sounds like Nephi in his willingness to be led and his desire to do the will of the Lord no matter what that turned out to be. He also sounds a bit like Nephi the son of Helaman in Helaman 10 who has the assurance that the Lork knows that he will do nothing contrary to the will of the Lord.

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An Apostolic Testimony

President Eyring was attending our ward today and at the end of the testimony meeting, as the first counselor in our bishopric was about to stand and close the meeting, President Eyring leaned over to him and apparently asked for the opportunity to bear his testimony. President Eyring stood and bore his testimony regarding President Monson as the prophet in our day and also his testimony regarding the mission of the Savior.

Besides being a bit distracted by a couple of fidgety children I was so grateful for the opportunity to listen to the testimony of a special witness of Christ. I was reminded that one of our great blessings in the church is the knowledge of where such testimony can be found. His testimony also provided a very convenient reference in my Sunday school class as we talked about the fact that all the prophets and apostles since Joseph Smith have consistently shared their witness of Christ and His mission.

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Stability Amid Change

I remember when Elder Neal A. Maxwell died followed closely by the death of Elder David B. Haight. I thought at the time that the church had enjoyed what seemed to be an unusually long period of stability among the highest leadership of the church (The First Presidency and the Quorum of the twelve Apostles). That thought returned to me after the recent passing of President Hinckley – making the fourth death among those councils in under 4 years. That, in turn, brought my thoughts to sister Ruth Faust whose husband, President James E. Faust, was the third of those four to die (6 months ago). Today I learned that Sister Faust passed away this morning – 6 months to the day after her sweetheart.

As all my thoughts coalesced upon learning of her passing I began to feel as if the Lord is turning over the highest leadership of the church to a new generation. Returning to my previous thought, I looked at a chronology of the Quorum of the Twelve Apostles and found that the more than 9 years without a change that ended with the death of Elder Maxwell was truly unusual. Going all the way back to the beginning of that quorum there has rarely been more than two years without some change in the quorum. Among those rare periods that exceeded two years, none were even as long as 6 years.

What a marvelous thing for the church to have those years. During those 9 years the membership of the church grew by 30% (from 9 to 12 million) and the full term of President Hinckley’s presidency it grew by nearly 50%. (Membership actually almost tripled during the full 26 years that President Hinckley was in the First Presidency – starting from under 5 million and ending above 13 million.) It’s no wonder that his death was felt so strongly by so many in the church.

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New Apostles

I think it is exciting and appropriate that we have a new apostle who is not from the United States. It reflects the growing maturity of the worldwide church.

I wholeheartedly support Elder Uchtdorf and Elder Bednar.