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Winning the Contest

Yesterday at church was apparently a contest of wills between Isaac and me. He was acting up and causing a disturbance in sacrament meeting and I took him outside. Eventually he won his way back in only to have Laura take him out a few minutes later after renewed disturbance. Laura came back in a few minutes later sans Isaac and informed me that Isaac only wanted me. I went outside to where he was sitting and talked to him. He wanted to go home and take a nap. As we talked I explained to him that he was tired because he had been struggling with me in a struggle that he could not win. I told him that I did not want to take him home but that I would be happy to let him take a nap in my arms. Due to his continued sobbing I finally asked if he would be willing to take a short nap at home and come back in time for the last hour of church. He agreed to that and I collected Enoch (so that Laura would not have to take care of the baby while teaching her Sunday School class) and left as sacrament meeting was drawing to a close.

As soon as we got home and closed the garage door Isaac announced that: “I won the contest.” I asked him what contest he was talking about and he told me he won the contest with me about us going home.

Not to be outdone I decided to turn the tables on Isaac. (Yes, that’s dad, competing with his three year old in mind games.) I asked Isaac if the whole idea was to win the contest. He said that it was and so I asked if we could go back to church now that he had won the contest. He agreed. I quickly took the opportunity to put in my contacts (that I had forgotten before church) and then we went back to church before the chapel had even cleared from the meeting.

As we parked Isaac said that he wanted to go home and take a nap. I reminded him that he had already won the contest and had agreed to come back because of that so he went in and I took him to primary. I was feeling pretty proud of myself – I figured that I had won the contest after all – although I would not say such a thing to Isaac. Later I saw Laura in the hall between meetings and I explained how we had been able to come back to church so quickly because of Isaac winning the contest. After we got home from church Isaac announced to Laura that: “Dad won the contest.”

Apparently he recognized that he had been outmaneuvered even without me rubbing it in.

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New Calling

The vast majority of those reading this probably already knew this, but I was recently called to be the Elder’s Quorum President in my ward. I’ve known for a couple of weeks as I had to have time to identify the rest of the presidency and get them called but I did not want to announce it here before it was official (which happened yesterday but I was slow to sit down to write about it) despite the fact that the chances of anyone within the ward reading this before it became public were extremely slim.

The day I was called was exceptionally exciting for me because I have so much respect for my stake president, President Taylor. To have the opportunity to sit with him and answer questions of worthiness and talk about spiritual things from the ward conference we had just had was thrilling. In the few minutes that we had before Laura joined the interview he learned that Laura had missed the stake conference where he was called as Stake President and President Eyring taught about the principle of gathering as well as missing the ward conference two weeks before our interview where President Taylor told of his experience when he was called and felt impressed that gathering was the message for our stake. When President Taylor learned that he volunteered to come to our house and teach our family personally that afternoon. We had been praying for President Taylor, Bishop Tueller, and the First Presidency and Apostles as a family ever since the ward conference (due to an impression I had felt at that meeting) and the children knew each of the people they were praying for except for President Taylor either because they had met them (Bishop) or through their pictures. They enjoyed meeting him so that they knew who they were praying for and Laura and I felt so much love as he taught us about gathering and actually gave us a copy of the talk he had been giving at ward conferences on the subject. What a great way to start our relationship with him as I will have more dealings with him through this calling than I could expect to have without it.

Anyway, I’m very excited to have this opportunity to serve. I have a great presidency with Wes Austin, Jon Nieman, and Alex Monson. Best of all I have an amazing quorum and get to work with a Bishop and Stake President that I really admire. Ever since I was first called I have begun to have greater feelings of respect and concern for the men in the quorum and I’m happy to be in a position where I will have the information which will enable me to reach out and help them in any way that they need it.

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The Test and the Key

Last November I was asked to speak in Sacrament meeting on President Packer’s talk from the October conference. I have long made it a standard practice to save my written talks for reference later if I get a similar topic in the future. (It’s interesting to go back and read some of them and gain new insight into the topic.) Today Connor wrote about that same talk and I thought that considering the importance of the topic I should share what I had presented when I was asked to speak about it in case it was of any use to anyone. What follows is essentially my written talk with two caveats – first, that my spoken talks are never exactly the same as what I had written; second, that I will be editing this as seems appropriate (removing references specific to that sacrament meeting for example).

I wonder how many people there were like me who were excited to hear the words of President Packer when he stated the purpose he hoped to accomplish through his talk as he opened by saying:

“It is my purpose to show that in troubled times the Lord has always prepared a safe way ahead. We live in those ‘perilous times’ which the Apostle Paul prophesied would come in the last days. If we are to be safe individually, as families, and secure as a church, it will be through ‘obedience to the laws and ordinances of the Gospel.’ā€(Boyd K. Packer, ā€œThe Test,ā€ Ensign, Nov 2008, 88 emphasis added)

I don’t think any of us are surprised to learn that we live in perilous times and thus it is comforting to have the renewed assurance by one of the Lord’s servants that we can be safe and secure individually, as families, and as a church by obedience to the laws and ordinances of the gospel.

President Packer told of the Independence Day celebration by the saints in Salt Lake City in 1849. He said that if we could understand why they would have that celebration and why they would choose patriotism as their theme after what they had endured we would have unlocked the key to what a Latter-Day Saint is. Brothers and sisters, while we are called Latter-Day Saints, that is a title not so much for who we are in most cases as it is for who we are striving to become. Unlocking that key, therefore, is very important if we are to grow to be worthy of that designation.

President Packer is kind enough to explicitly state the key which we should be seeking to unlock about saints. The key to what a latter-day saint is is they are anchored to revelation. Or I would say, they are anchored to revealed truth. President Packer noted three aspects of that 1849 celebration which he described as ā€œboth symbolic and propheticā€:

  1. that the young men carried the Constitution and the Declaration of Independence
  2. that each young woman carried the Bible and the Book of Mormon
  3. and that the Silver Greys were honored in the parade

Each of these three aspects helps us to understand the types or sources of revealed truth to which a latter-day saint will seek to anchor themselves.

Though we believe that the Constitution of our nation is an inspired document we rarely think of it as a source of truth. The awful experiences of the early saints would make it easy to forget that it is worth anchoring ourselves and our society to the truths it embodies.

The spokesman for the Silver Greys, Elder Phineas Richards, provided the necessary perspective when he declared that they had seen the United States in its glory and thus they knew by experience ā€œthat the outrageous cruelties we have suffered proceeded from a corrupted and degenerate administration, while the pure principles of our boasted Constitution remain unchanged.ā€

We too have lived in a day when we have seen actions from our government that didn’t live up to the ā€œpure principles of our boasted Constitution.ā€ That may serve as a reminder to us that we cannot let go of true principles when we see those principles implemented imperfectly.

We know that the Book of Mormon and the Bible are sources for revealed truth in our day to which we must cling. They represent the iron rod from Lehi’s dream which will lead us to the tree of life and the eternal happiness that is promised to those who press forward to reach it.

The honoring of the Silver Greys is symbolic of the value that we should place on the life experience of our elders. The Silver Greys of our day would be the senior leaders of the church ā€“ men who have likewise been ā€œseasoned by decades of [experience].ā€ When those leaders speak we should give special weight to their counsel in our efforts to determine the proper course of action on the issues of the day.

If we are to be saints in these latter days ā€“ anchored to revelation ā€“ we must work to build a personal foundation of knowledge of revealed truths. In Doctrine and Covenants Section 88 the Lord admonishes us to ā€œseek ye diligently and teach one another words of wisdom; yea, seek ye out of the best books words of wisdom; seek learning, even by study and also by faith.ā€ (D&C 88:118) In that section He describes the order of the School of the Prophets which was to be a place for the instruction of all the officers of the church ā€œin all things that are expedient for them.ā€ (D&C 88:127) Joseph Smith established that school and I find it instructive that while they primarily studied topics of a spiritual nature in that school they also studied languages and were instructed ā€œof things both in heaven and in the earth, and under the earth; things which have been, things which are, things which must shortly come to pass; things which are at home, things which are abroad; the wars and the perplexities of the nations, and the judgments which are on the land; and a knowledge also of countries and of kingdoms,ā€ as they had been promised in verse 79 of section 118. (emphasis added) We too, as we increase our knowledge of revealed truth, will find ourselves learning of things which we had not previously viewed as spiritually significant.

If we are reaching to expand our understanding with the goal to be ā€œanchored to revelationā€ we must learn to recognize what constitutes revelation of a sufficiently solid foundation for us to sink an anchor. Imagine a mountain climber attaching an anchor to which he will connect his rope to ensure a safe climb. He must place that anchor not in any piece of rock on the mountain, but to a part which will not come loose as he pulls at it during his climb. Alma tells us what is strong enough to support an anchor ā€“ it is those truths which are kept, or written down, and preserved so that they might ā€œretain their brightness.ā€ (See Alma 37:5) In other words, it is the standard works, our conference talks and documents such as Proclamation on the Family – as opposed to a quote from one of our past prophets that has been transmitted by memory and word of mouth. While those quotes may have value as a handhold, they may not hold an anchor against the pressures that we will face in our personal climbs.

Notice that the first two things that President Packer cited as symbolic and prophetic are all written down so that we may remember them clearly ā€“ the Constitution and the Declaration of Independence as one aspect and the Bible and the Book of Mormon as another. These retain their brightness and serve as a foundation in their respective spheres of influence. When coupled with the experience and perspective of the Silver Greys of our day, being anchored to these written foundations can ensure that we safely navigate the challenges that we face in our lives.

Not only can the breadth of topics which the brethren learned about in the school of the prophets serve as an example of what we should learn about, they counsel of how to learn ā€“ ā€œby study and also by faithā€ is important. The educational institutions of the world have much to say about seeking learning by study, but what does it mean to seek learning by faith? What is the process to learn in this way?

Alma taught the Zoramites very clearly the process of learning by faith. First, ā€œexercise a particle of faith, . . . even until ye believe in a manner that ye can give place for a portion of [the knowledge you are trying to learn].ā€ (Alma 32:27) Second, test the truth or goodness of the seed you have planted by observing whether it [enlarges your soul], [enlightens your mind], and even [begins to be delicious to you]. (Alma 32:28) Third, if the seed has proven to be good or true, nourish that seed of knowledge until you are able to partake of the fruit of that knowledge. (Alma 32:41) A shorter and simpler description was given by the Savior during His mortal ministry: If any man will do his will, he shall know of the doctrine, whether it be of God, or whether I speak of myself. (John 7:17) To learn by faith means that we must put into practice those truths which we have not come to fully understand.

That might include paying tithing in order to see the promised blessings to know if the seed is good or it might be keeping the covenants that we have made through priesthood ordinances where we know that the seed is good, but we have not come to partake of the fruit of those covenants, which fruit includes the peace, safety, and security that President Packer is reassuring us about. If we have doubts concerning the counsel given to us by our priesthood leaders we should be seeking to learn concerning that counsel by following the path of learning by faith ā€“ we should be obedient to the counsel they have given in order that we may come to understand that counsel so that it may become part of the rock of revelation to which we are anchored. That is how we ā€œgive place for a portion of [their]wordsā€ and come to know ā€œwhether it be of God.ā€

As we seek learning by study and also by faith we will have a solid rock of revealed truth to which we can anchor ourselves and our families ā€“ and it will be the same rock to which this church has been anchored since it was restored upon the earth. Then we will come to know by our own experience the truth of the counsel that Alma gave to Helaman that ā€œit is as easy to give heed to the word of Christ, which will point to you a straight course to eternal bliss, as it was for our fathers to give heed to [the Liahona].ā€ (Alma 37:44) As we give heed to the word of Christ we will find our safety and security being preserved in miraculous ways.

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Too Busy to Hear

It constantly amazes me how human and approachable President Eyring is. We were blessed to have him speak to our Elder’s quorum today. His son, Stewart, was there as well. At the end, everyone allowed President Eyring to leave first. I was not far behind him, but he stopped in the hallway to wait for his son. As I got to where he was he said, “I guess Stewart isn’t coming yet.” I’m not sure that he was really saying it to me, but I responded that it looked like Stewart was stuck behind a lot of other people in the room. Just then I heard Savannah’s voice in the hallway calling to Alyssa and Mariah – trying to direct them. As they came in sight I called out to them to calm them down and get them out of the way. President Eyring said to me “Savannah?” (I had called her by name) and I said, “Yes, Savannah.” He then called out to her. Unfortunately for Savannah, she was too busy with whatever she was thinking about to notice that a prophet had tried to speak to her. She rushed off the other way to find Laura.

As that happened Mariah came to me and asked me to pick her up. I stood up with her in my arms as Savannah was leaving and turned to President Eyring and, referring back to the lesson he had just given said “this is my little celestial kingdom.” He looked at Mariah and said, “Yes, and we all have to become like her to return home.”

I think that is the identifying feature of the society of apostles and prophets – it’s not about titles or position, but that society is where the eternal can be recognized even among the most mundane parts of life. Being in their presence is no guarantee that we will be able to recognize what they have to offer us. To truly have the society of apostles and prophets we have to prepare ourselves to listen when they speak and to feast on what they have to offer us – whether they have a title that the world would recognize, or whether they are simply people filled with the spirit of prophecy and a testimony of the Savior.

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Elder’s Quorum with President Eyring

I had not known what I would ask an apostle if given the opportunity and today I had the opportunity. I really like the way the President Eyring conducted the class – he invited us to ask questions and suggest topics. He then wrote down our requests so that he could group them as appropriate and answer them in the order than seemed most fitting. One person asked about the apostolic calling and President Eyring said that he would answer that by talking about the Quorum of the Twelve and not about the personal apostolic witness – there I suddenly had my question. I asked if he would please say something about the nature of an apostolic witness (of course I stumbled over my words and phrased it quite clumsily but he understood my question and rephrased it in that way).

President Eyring started by grouping the suggestions of our pre-mortal existence, the celestial kingdom, and the Atonement together as elements of the plan of salvation. He said that we didn’t know very much about any of them. We know a few things about the pre-mortal existence and the celestial kingdom from the scriptures but nobody truly comprehends the magnitude of the Atonement despite all that has been said about it. He described the celestial kingdom as the life that Heavenly Father lives and said that it is a very challenging life. He told us to imagine what it would be like to look down on earth at all your children and see the terrible things that they are doing to each other. On the other hand He also sees the wonderful things that are done and gets great joy out of those. He also told us that regardless of how hard it was it was something that we should all desire. I realized as he was talking about the challenges of a celestial life that it makes sense that there are some people who really do not desire to make the effort necessary to receive or live such a life.

I have, at times, been tempted to ascribe more of short-sightedness than malice to the intentions of Lucifer in proposing his impossible alternative of a plan. President Eyring said forcefully that it was an outright rebellion that was based on a lie. The lie was that people need not walk by faith – that Satan could give them the assurance of salvation by abandoning their agency. The truth is that even in the presence of the Father all the spirits were under the necessity of walking by faith.

Speaking of the calling of the Twelve Apostles, President Eyring said that the apostasy was not the absence of the priesthood on the earth. He cited the presence of John the revelator as well as the Three Nephites as evidence that there have been priesthood holders on the earth throughout that period, even apostles. What was missing from the earth was the foundation upon which a true church organization is built – namely a quorum of apostles.

Speaking of the nature of an apostolic witness he said that an apostolic witness has nothing to do with what you have seen – it is about what you KNOW. In other words, it is about having the knowledge that Christ is our Savior in your heart as a part of your being. He said that last night he learned (again) what it means to have an eye single to God as Christ did. It means that the first thought in all things is “Father, what would you have me do?” And that thought must be coupled with an absolute determination to do whatever the Lord directs regardless of the outcome, the cost, or the perceptions of others.

It was very interesting to hear President Eyring talk about President Hinckley and President Monson. Some people view them very differently and, like any other calling in the church, they recognize that each person holding the calling need not follow the footsteps of the person before them. While that is true in one sense I caught a very different perspective on it today as he spoke. President Hinckley did things based exactly on what the Lord told him as he asked “Father, what would you have me do?” For this very frugal man that included some very grand and expensive undertakings (the Conference Center – which might be viewed as unnecessary considering the technology that we already have; the expansion of temple building; the rebuilding of downtown Salt Lake City) and President Eyring assures us that President Hinckley did all this while knowing that we would face the economic downturn that is now upon us. The Lord was using the particular gifts of President Hinckley to do His work. President Monson does different things than President Hinckley, but he does them based on the very same question, “Father, what would you have me do?”

I have always felt more connection with President Hinckley than I did with President Monson. I believe that is because I am more tuned in to those organizational types of things than I am into the human things that are such a hallmark of President Monson as he is prompted to give a blessing, to make a visit, and to lift up the broken-hearted.

The key for me, in my quest to gain an apostolic witness for myself is to build my knowledge of the Savior until it is at the core of my being and practice asking the question “Father, what would you have me do?” and having the determination that my response will be to follow the answers regardless of the cost or consequence. I do know that Christ is the Savior and I do wish to do as He requires. I am willing to face challenges for His Name’s sake – I simply need to grow more perfect in those things. As I do so the Lord will use me in ways that are uniquely suited to my gifts to accomplish His work.

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Not My Will but Thine

I have been thinking about the prayer offered by the Savior in Gethsemane – specifically the plea “Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me, nevertheless, not as I will but as Thou wilt.” (Matthew 26:39; see also Mark 14:36 or Luke 22:42)

I have had two realizations as I have pondered this plea. First, “let his cup pass from me.” Before I really thought about this I think I treated it as a line rehearsed for a play. I never really thought of it like that, but I did not recognize the truth behind those words. Christ really did not want to endure the suffering that he was facing. He really did wish that His Father would take the cup away. However, what he really desired was the results which that suffering would bring. The ability and opportunity to act as intercessor for men at the judgment bar, thus enabling mortal men to achieve exaltation.

The second realization (which came in the last few days) was enlightened by the first realization (which I had much earlier). “Not as I will but as Thou wilt.” Even as he sincerely prayed to have the cup removed, Christ knew the will of God. He did not merely have a pretty good idea of what His Father wanted from Him, He knew. Christ poured His whole soul out to His Father even where His will did not match the will of the Father. I have often prayed to do the will of the Father without knowing what His will was. I think it has often been an effort to avoid discovering what my own will was. “I want what You want so just show me where to go” or “I want what You want so, whatever happens I will assume that it was what You wanted.”

I think that the ideal situation is to know and own our individual will and to discover the will of the Father. We should then do the will of the Father whether it agrees with our own will or not. The reason that should inspire us to take that course is that we love our Father and our Savior and that our overarching desire is to return to them. That desire should be greater than any individual wish we may have that conflicts with what They want for – or from – us.

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Zion

I am going to reserach and write about everything I can find that has been written or spoken under inspiration regarding Zion. This includes Zion as found in Eden, Enoch, Salem, Kirtland, Nauvoo, Salt Lake, and the New Jerusalem. I may even include anything about Heaven and Old Jerusalem rebuilt relevant to what I find on the first list.

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Singing Hymns

When the Stake Priesthood Leadership Meeting was supposed to start yesterday the announcement came that the presiding authority had not arrived. Considering the traffic we had seen on the freeway (I-15 was a parking lot) we were not surprised. This announcement did not delay the beginning of the meeting. The chorister stood up and began to lead us, thousands of men, in a series of hymns. The words to the hymn were displayed on the view-screen for all to see and we sang one hymn after another for 20 minutes until President Monson arrived. I was hoarse from singing tenor and being sick, but I felt good. It was inspiring to hear so many men singing hymns, and harmonizing, while waiting for our priesthood leader.

The interesting thing as I look back is that I have had an endless supply of hymns going through my head for the entire 29 hours since then. Twenty minutes of that spirit has kept my head so full that I have not had time for any bad thought since then. I wonder how long it will last?

That is proof of the power of hymns.

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Stake Conference

Sitting through meeting for stake conference has left me reflective. Our stake was split today and I realized that Laura and I have moved into this stake twice and had temple recommends twice from the same counselor in the stake presidency, who is now the president of the new stake which does not include our current residence, but it does cover where we lived the first time we moved into the stake.

None of that is of any great importance.

I have also been reflecting on some other insights into myself which have left me questioning. As I sat through the priesthood leadership meeting I found it amazing at the questions that some people have about proper church operations. Upon reflection I have realized that I have spent a lifetime observing and taking mental notes as to the proper organization and management of the church. I have been blessed to serve as a secretary in two bishoprics and serve as an ordinance worker in the Provo Temple. These callings have given me opportunities to observe the management of the Lord’s kingdom on earth in such a way as to afford observation of some details which would never be visible to someone who had not been in those positions.

I reflect that in addition to those wonderful opportunities to observe the order that the Lord wants for His church, I have also spent many years trying to cultivate in myself (and teach to others where appropriate) a proper and complete understanding of the doctrines of the gospel. That will always be a work in progress, but I believe that with the progress I have made so far I have built a firm foundation. If that were not enough I have also been blessed to “be able to have an understanding concerning the great latter day work.”

When considering all these factors I am left to wonder – why? It would seem that I have never been in a position to put this compilation of observation and understanding to any use in the work of the Lord. Not only that, but I do not seem to be on any track that would lead to being able to make use of any of it. This is not a matter of discontent. I would willingly continue doing the things I am currently called to do, but I just wonder at the fact that what I am called to do does not seem to make any use of the lessons that I have been taught thus far in my life. When will my previous lessons be brought to bear in the work that the Lord gives to me?